people are awesome
2026.05.27
Hello blog. I should be studying for the test today, but honestly I think I’m probably gonna do fine. I always ace tests. (after the test) Okay, I got three questions wrong. Tsk.
Thank you, family!
Today, my family called me as I was studying at school. I seriously love those guys, they’re so silly. I’m so excited to see them again next month so they can compliment my super cool bangs IRL. My baby cousin expressed to me how she preferred the longer blog posts because she’d have something to do on the bus. Hence, I will attempt to write a little more everyday! I love writing about anything. Okay, for example I love poems. I’ll dedicate this one to my family:
there’s a man who goes around my screen
knocking down doors and messing up dreams
he calls himself the savior of me
and sometimes I believe him.
last night, he gave me a script to read
and so I spoke out loud to thee:
“that dress makes you look fat and ten times older
you’re face needs some work, just die and roll over.”
i wish i could leave him, i swear I do
but he reads me bedtime stories from night until noon
and i love his complexion: so rough, yet so smooth
he spins me a web, then I’m wrapped in his cocoon
maybe he’s the only one who will love me.
Okay, that had nothing to do with my family, but I like it. I think it would be cool lyrics to some punk song. Interpret it however you like.
I regret everything
Remember that ramen place I went to a week ago? Well, I went back and actually finished the entire bowl this time. It was really way too much for me. I can barely walk now. I feel drunk. I hate this feeling so much.
(about an hour of walking through the rain later)
I feel okay right now. I’ve been drinking way too much coke zero. I thought I was gonna have a heart attack this morning when I drank it with my meal, but I didn’t. Anyway, I’m drinking more coke zero right now. I just love the stuff, but it is genuinely terrible for me. I think I’m probably 50% coke zero, 25% baumkuchen, and 25% ramen. Oh, and here’s a pic of my food/food poison from earlier:
IT LOOKS WAY SMALLER ON CAMERA than in real life. IRL, it’s probably the size of a honeydew.
When I rated this the first time, it was a 9.5/10, but now it’s more like a 4/10. -6 points because it made my stomach hurt way worse than the first time. I thought I was either going to pass out or puke, and I ordered the small bowl. About halfway through the bowl, I looked to my left to a guy who had a unexaggerated soccer ball size ramen. It was crazy sauce. I could not believe my little blasian eyes. The Japanese are genuinely nuts because this guy wasn’t even fat, he was moderately sized. What???
Speaking of regrets, my Chinese classmate こうさん told me that he was 17. I truly did not believe him. I said, “wait, you mean 27?” He is 17. I don’t know why there are so many 17 year old boys in my class, but there are. It makes sense that he’s younger than me since I sort of feel like his older sister sometimes. I really enjoy him though. He does this thing where he exhales with his entire lung capacity and it never fails to make me chuckle. His breath reeks. I hope he didn’t take offense to me basically saying he looks 27.
purpose…
I’ve been thinking lately what I can do to provide for the world. I’d like to make an album out of my songs, make music videos that pertain to social issues, and share them with the world. I think that is where my heart is leading me towards in this current moment. On my one hour walk, I listened to the 6 songs I’ve created in this past year that I really enjoy. I thought that if I feel something listening to these songs, someone else will too, and maybe that would help someone. I for sure have been helped my songs. In a way, it’s sort of destimulating. I can focus on the emotional journey of the music rather than how I’m completely isolated from my family, all the way across the world, in a sea of a homogenous population. Since I can do that, I
Okay, I think I might watch more of that Instagram girl as I regurgitate unchewed beansprouts. It’s like my body is reminding me to chew my food. Wait, that’s exactly what it’s doing! Once again, the human body amazes me. じゃね！