2026.06.01
Hello blog. Today marks 2 months in Osaka. yay! I cannot believe I’ve made it this far. It feels like a lifetime ago when I was freaking out over my lost baggage. Now, I feel accustomed to living here (sort of.) Celebratory theme cuz why the heck not?
DREAMS
Today I had a dream where I was having a conversation with my teacher over the science of human luckiness. My mom was getting really jealous of our conversation, interjecting very rudely. She demanded me to go eat. My mom and I elaborately ordered chick-fil-a at a drive-through beforehand, so I went to go fetch it from the fridge. I’m not sure why we put it in the fridge. The moment before I got to chow down and continue conversing with the teacher, I was waking up. I remember thinking “darnit! I really wanted to eat this chick-fil-a.” Even though I knew it was a dream, I really wanted some darned chick-fil-a. I still want chick-fil-a. Maybe I should try lucid dreaming that dream again. Ugh. Okay, I’m going back to bed.
Okay, I’m back up. I woke up like 1.5hrs ago and I only remember my second dream slightly. I was like the Moana of a village or something like that. Happy pride month! The book I’m reading is very gay, but in the most screwed up way. It’s disgusting. I’m not even 21. That’s crazy because today I feel 22. I think it’s the way I styled my hair. I feel like a cool British woman, like Daughter or something. I’m not as tall as a cool British woman. ぜひ高いせが欲しい。私のせが高いになってください。
大変だ
今日は月経をしっています。血液が私のパンツをつける。きも。びしょびしょ。服を洗濯しませんでした。そして本を読みたい。だからぜひ学校へ行きたくない。宿題をしなければなりません。日本語が面白くて楽しいですがめっちゃ難しくてしょんどい。例えば、教科書はうんははいと言います。だから教科書もううんはいいえと言います。へえ？抑揚から。
それから、まじ掃除しなければなりません。食べ物をたくさん食べたからお腹が痛い。日本でマガリンロールがあります。荷物を一つが六つあります。めっちゃおいしい。２０分ぐらい全部を食べました。おおきい人になります。大変だ。
MORE BOOKS!
I just took a huge nap today, like five hours. I guess today is a good day to walk around and find snacks. I’m still trying to understand my body whilst on my period. For example, I am really hungry probably because of iron deficiency, but I also don’t seem to gain weight, maybe because of water retention? Or delusion? IDK, I’ll figure it out at some point.
Anyway, I wanted to talk about the book that I finished today. It took a short time to read because it was very interesting, sort of in a way that you find a grotesque car crash interesting. Methinks the only reason this book was (subjectively) good was because of the superb writing. Every sentence was so interpretable, yet conveyed what it needed to maintain the plot. To talk about the topics in this book, you need to be a good writer, otherwise you’d be dishonored for the rest of your days. Maybe being a good writer means you show a deep understanding and respect for every element. This book displayed that well.
Please do not read this book, but the book was Try by Dennis Cooper. You can read the description online, but don’t actually read it. The elements in this book are forever burned in memory.
Now I am reading “No Longer Human” by Osamu Dazai, a Japanese writer. Continuing on the path of dark themed books I’ve indirectly put myself on, this book is pretty much known as Dazai’s suicide note including his grievances about modern society. He came from a wealthy family whom of which he felt disconnected from as a youth, then he studied French literature at Tokyo university but dropped out because of various struggles. At the age of 38, he committed suicide with his lover Tomie Yamazaki by drowning in the ocean. Forgive me if this is rudely uncalled for, but I didn’t think it was possible to drown yourself. That must have been a difficult death.
You know what? I might make a separate tab on this blog for book reviews. Okay, I’m gonna do that. I’m gonna name it “JUST BOOKS” or something like that.
Okay, just made it, but I have no content available. Just be prepared to see a new tab on the home page. I really love books, but I haven’t really been able to express my thoughts about them. If there is anything I learned from school, it’s that discussion is important. I will fulfill the duties the American education system has set out for me!
Okay, I think I’m gonna continue reading or, even better, watch more love on the spectrum. I love this show so much. I love how they show their relationship after they get together because love is a rocky journey. before I watch, I REALLY WANT TO GET MORE FOOD… Maybe later. Okay, bye! じゃね。